Losses of Many Things

I lost 5 pounds, yay! I have been doing a quasi-paleo diet type thing where I'm limiting my carbs intake to about 100-150 grams per day. So basically I'm not eating grains, beans, or potatoes. Went for my first semi-barefoot run last weekend. I started the couch to 5k program and I ran in my Vibram 5fingers :) It was awesome. Running is hard. But I love it.

The boyfriend and I are splitting up. We need to separate for a bit. I want to be on my own for awhile. We just jumped into this relationship too quickly due to a lot of crazy external circumstances but neither of us has really taken the time to "heal" from the relationships we had been in prior. We were both *in* relationships when we met and ended up living together not long after we started dating, sort of out of necessity. We had a few choices and we made that one; I think we were naive. We've gotten into some unhealthy behavior patterns. I am frustrated and resentful. However, I care about him a lot. I want us to figure out how to genuinely be friends with each other, and then see where it goes from there. It may well be that we take this time for ourselves and there really is no love, it was all codependent bullshit. But we won't really know unless we do it.

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So yeah, lots of changes afoot in my life right now.